Wednesday’s drama

I know this is supposed to be a daily thing but if you read my post the other day about my cat Bandit you might have guessed that things didn’t go to well at the vet. As, unfortunately I had anticipated, my darling Bandit has now gone to heaven leaving a gaping whole in my life and heart. All day Thursday I was a blubbering mess, so anything I would have written probably wouldn’t have made sense.…not that I can guarantee I’m any better today!

As any pet owner will know when you have had your pet for awhile you can’t help but get attached and as the years past by they become a member of your family. So when that time comes for your beloved pet, the grief you will feel is no less real than that you would experience if a human being. Since Wednesday as I said I have cried continually, I have blamed myself…did I not care for him properly? Could I have changed anything to stop him from getting sick? Silly questions which I know are completely irrational but as much as I know this my mind still swirls.

Since he became sick in October he would lie on the sofa beside me knowing that I too was unwell and if my back pain was really bad he wouldn’t leave my side. Now I bet a sound like a complete freak but when your kids have outgrown the need for cuddles and bedtime stories have been read aloud apps on tablets etc your pet suddenly feels like the only thing who still has time for you…..that is until they invent iPads for animals then we may as well just give up!